I never set out to be a stay at home mom. I was going to be a working mom, the main breadwinner, and let my husband be the one who took care of things when I had to work. It is what we agreed on and we were happy with the decision.
Then I actually HAD the baby.
When Lily was 3 1/2 months old, I was diagnosed with malignant pleural mesothelioma, a cancer almost always caused by asbestos exposure.Our world turned upside down. I was not prepared to deal with this while being a first time mom, but I had no choice, this was my life now.
As the next few weeks progressed, and we learned more about my cancer, and the options, we made the tough decision to travel to Boston, some 1300 miles away to have surgery that not only would not only prolong my life, but save it.
Being a parent means making sacrifices… and we made the sacrifice of missing a couple of months of Lily’s infant life, so I could be here to raise her. She went to live with my parents in my childhood home in South Dakota, while my husband, Cameron, and I traveled to Boston to have my left lung removed. This was a 7-hour operation, with an extended hospital stay. All in all, I was in Boston for 35 days. Lily’s entire 6th month of life.
When I was healthy enough to travel, I moved in with my parents, who would help me with Lily until I was able to care for her on my own, which would take a couple more months. My husband had to stay home in MN and work, as bills still needed to be paid, and he was only able to see our baby a total of 36 hours in 3 months; once again, a sacrifice that had to be made in the interim until things got better.
Lily was so little, she doesn’t remember it, she just knows that she was with people who loved her and took great care of her. We were both finally able to move home 2 months later, just in time for me to start the next phase of treatment, chemotherapy.
It was a struggle to juggle the demands of being mommy with the physical demands of battling an illness. Chemo really took it out of me, and for the 6 days after I had chemo, I would need help in caring for her. She was just 9 months old. When I felt good, we would go to the park with friends, or just play in the yard. A lot of time was spent with me laying on the sofa and she bringing me toys.
After finishing 4 rounds of chemo, Lily turned 1. I was well enough to plan a big celebration, and friends and family surrounded us. We celebrated much more than just her 1-year birthday…we celebrated life, and the fact that I was still there watching my baby grow.
Radiation soon followed, and this presented another set of challenges. I had radiation daily, and it took about an hour, so I always had to arrange for a sitter. We had great friends and neighbors who were happy to help out. We worked around Lily’s schedule, so I could sleep when she slept. We somehow made it through that year with the help of many people.
It is our milestone we celebrate together, and I couldn’t ask for more.
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