I know many of you have been reading this blog for a time and you know a little about me and my family that I shared here. You know I confessed that I do not think I am the perfect mom and that I know God is molding me with motherhood. I have been asked questions about why I set this blog up the way that I did. Questions like: Why is “survival” in the title of this blog? What is the significance of the duck toy in the title image? (Hint: it has to do with my miscarriage.) Why do you not post every day? So, in the interest of making sure you know the blogger behind the blog, I want to share the answers to these with you.
Why is “survival” in the title?
I hope that with this blog I can try to reach women-those who are joyfully interested in being SAHMs and those who may not want to do it but realize they can be the best caregiver for their child during the young years. My mom was home with me and I am glad to be able to be with my children each day, but it is not easy. I hope women making a choice to be stay-at-home moms survives and does not fade away.
I have held on to that little toy through 6 military moves and 4 living children. It is part of my history as a mom and reminds me not only of that lost baby, but also of all that I have lost and gained through being a mom. I have lost some selfishness and focus on petty things-still more to lose there. I have lost the idea that I can do any of this without God’s help. I have gained the knowledge that when I focus on what God needs me to do now, I can have peace. When I try to focus on what I want when I want it, my house falls apart and I lose peace.
That little toy is a reminder that many women wish to have children and can not, therefore, I will cherish each day with my children. It is also a reminder of the loss. The loss of a baby. I feel with the twins that I was given back that miscarried baby. We are so abundantly blessed with our family. Yet, I remember the loss, the passing of that lifeless tissue and I know that each of my children are precious-and God gave them and can take them away whenever He chooses.
I am a mom and wife FIRST-just like you! Every day is as different as it is the same since children can be very unpredictable and the challenges we face can catch us off-guard. As my children grow I look forward to more time to write and share, and for now I am glad to post when I can-and I know that you are working as I am to focus on family. How silly would it be if I actually set my children aside to watch movies all day while I was writing away while pretending to be a devoted mom and wife? I do not want to be a lie. I am doing what you are doing-trying to get to a peaceful balance each day, and not always succeeding, but always trying.
I am excited for how this blog can grow as my children and motherhood experiences grow. Being a mom is hard work, always changing and pays us back with so much reward over time…just hold on, we will get there. YOUR experiences matter and I have enjoyed reading your comments and messages, answering your questions, or understanding your challenges. We are in this together!
To say thank you for the time that you have been reading along, here is the first “gift” for this blog anniversary celebration!
Enjoy your time at home!